Apparently, I suck at keeping my journal updated lately. I used to be so good about it too. But I don't know... I've been really down lately, and not feeling up to doing anything. I haven't been on aim much either and I've just been rping a little with one or two people. I'm considering going on partial hiatus at TV until I get myself straightened out again.

Not much had been going on lately. I've been working on stuff to sell at AN, and fretting over whether I'll have enough money to go to Otakon this year or not. I'm really hoping I will, but with not being able to sell my ponies at the table it might not happen... but, I'm currently finnegling with my finances to see just how much I need to sell to be able to go to Baltimore (and then to VA and then to Dayton) so fingers crossed.

I am currently watching Eden Log, which is going so far over my head it might as well be a jumbo jet. XD; I'm going to have to watch it again and try to figure it out lol.

A few days ago I dislocated one of my toes. I slammed it into the stairs by accident. At least it popped back in on its own. Still hurt like a bitch though. BEHOLD I AM THE MASTER OF PERSONAL INJURY. Also, of not going to the hospital for dislocated joints because they happen all the fucking time wtf body.

RP talk, so if you don't care don't bother reading past here. More actual life-updates later on once I've thought about what I want to say.

We have a new Axel at TV, and I've gotten sucked into the AkuRoku trap. XD; I promised myself I wouldn't, not because I don't ship them together, but because it's pretty overdone at this point. Ah well. They're cute together, and Roxas is totally the man of the relationship which makes me laugh constantly. Also, tonight he got into an argument with Kanda, and the two of them spammed Axel's journal with it. lmao.

House is being his antisocial self, though he does get along rather well with Ziva (I totally ship them now, w2g TV you've ruined my in-series ships), and he's agreed to tutor Lenalee in math so long as he can call on a favor from her at some point in the future. He may get her to do something cruel to Remus, as he's still holding a grudge against him from way back when puppy!Remus chewed his cane up.

Dean is currently being crabby over the new event (school, yay?), and refuses to go, so he and Faith are going to hide out in the room with booze and porn and probably trade Hunter/Slayer stories. Faith demanded he share his porn and Dean was like "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE?" I still wish I had a Sam at TV though, Dean secretly worries about him.

Aaaaand Michi and I are doing a RikuRoku rp right now that takes place in the zombie!verse from the apocalypse!KH fic I'm in the process of tinkering with. XD; I get to play snarky/bitchy!Roxas, and that makes me utterly happy because he's too nice most of the time in TV (and he was the same way at RY, except with Axel lol.) RPing in it is really helping me flesh out the zombie!verse, so to speak, so I'm happy with it. :3

At TV, Cloud was turned into a chocobo. And Roxas is petting him.

... XD;;

This morning I watched Monsters vs Aliens and now I'm in the middle of watching The Bone Snatcher. MvA was cute in a Dreamworks kind of way. I really wanted to see it because Hugh Laurie did the voice of Dr. Cockroach for it. XD; And TBS is one that Dad recommended to me a while back and I just managed to find. It's a b-grade, with a bone-creature eating people and everything. Fun stuff.

My brother fixed his computer last night, he had to take it all apart and put it back together again but now it's running fine, which means he's no longer bored and I can have my PS2 back. lol. In a not-really-but-maybe-a-little related note, I want KH Final Mix, but sadly can't afford it right now. ;A;

Today I went up to the corner. My legs have gotten so bad that even just walking the few blocks there practically cripples me and I have to sit around outside the buildings or whatever until I can walk home again. -__-;

Anyway, I picked up a few Canada souvenirs to send to Jose, and some more beads and charms for making phone straps and earrings for Anime North. They also have those vacuum bags, you know the ones that you put stuff in and then vacuum all the air out to save space? So I grabbed a couple to try. If they work, they'll make packing for cons way easier from now on.

Then I went to the used bookstore to look at the manga. There wasn't any I was interested in, but I did get two other books, The Darkest Evening of the Year by Dean Koontz, and Vespers by Jeff Rovin. I'm in a horror kind of mood, I guess. While I was there, I was set upon by one of the store cats, Finley. There's two that live there (the other is Molly), and they're both sweethearts. But I'd forgotten I had some catnip in my coat pocket the other day that I got at the pet store for my cats, and Finley seemed intent on getting it. I was paying for my books and the next thing I knew he was on the counter with his head stuck in my coat pocket. XD; It was really cute.

MADDIE: I got more star beads for you today. I could only get six packs since that's all they had right now, but I'll pick up more later on when they get them in again. ♥

Aaaaand now for some RP rambling, so if you don't care to hear about it, you can stop reading from here on. :D

Holy hell, I posted a Roxas journal a couple days ago, and I swear half of TV just POUNCED on him. XD It was awesome, but I could barely keep up lol. Anyway, he made friends with Natsu, Lavi and Lenalee (who is one of his roommates). He may also be leaning toward being frienemies with Joshua. And he had a chat with Riku. That same day he talked with Sora since Naminé and Riku thought it was a good idea. And a couple days ago he made friends with Soul. Today he's talking to Reborn, who is another of his roommates. The only one he has yet to meet is Captain Sparrow.

I am amused.

A closeup of Neko that I took earlier today. I like it for some reason.

Got Roxas up and running at TV, and Dean and House working again. Yay for being active. Michi and I are doing another rp as well. ♥

Yesterday, Mom and I did a few errands and while we were out we ran into one of Grandma's friends. I didn't think about it, but I had my cane with me. Today Grandma called and was worried because I hadn't mentioned the cane to her, and Mom says she was hoping it was because of an accident or something, and was upset to learn that no, I'm using it because my legs and back have declined a lot the last few months.

That conversation lead to me chatting with Mom about various things, generally depressing myself, and then crying over how fucking unfair the world is. -__-;;

Other than that... not much to report. I'm tired, but I have a new episode of Supernatural to watch before I crash for the night.

EDIT: House missed his posse. And thus is building a new one. XD I'm probably more amused by that than I should be. lol.

So today I've decided to watch the Saw movies. Or, 2-5 anyway. I've avoided them all for a while because I watched like half an hour of Hostel a couple years ago and couldn't finish it because of the horrible, horrible torture sequences (I actually gave it away ASAP after that, hope you liked it Sethi? XD;;) and then just after that Sui-chan told me Saw was just as bad if not worse. So I crossed them all off my list of movies to see. XD;

But then a couple months ago I caught most of the first one on the TV and it wasn't nearly as bad as all that. xD;; The problem with Hostel was that it was torture and that is a big problem for me. Just violence doesn't bother me so much, and the Saw movies seem to be more about plain violence and mental anguish.

Anyway, so I watched II and III earlier and now I'm on IV. YAY. Then later today I have The Uninvited to watch.

Oh, last night I talked with Michi a bunch. ♥ ILU MICHI. I don't talk to her enough. /random

I guess RY is mostly dead now. It makes me sad. I love that place, but it's just... gone downhill a lot the last couple months, basically since we went on hiatus. *sigh* I'm sticking through until it's totally dead, though, or possibly if Steph and Maddie want out I'll talk with Mari about things we could try to get it going again. Hmm.

But if it completely dies, would people be interested in rping out some of the stuff we have planned anyway? We can do it over AIM or I'll set up rp threads in my own journal or something? Because I really want to at least do a couple logs with that vacation that Asch, Luke, Kadaj and Axel are supposed to go on. And some more stuff with Haruhi and Roxas. Things like that. Thoughts on that, people I rp with?

Now I need to get back into TV some. I was supposed to be off hiatus forever ago. But between being sick and... well, frankly, depressed as hell, I haven't done it yet. I'm going to get kicked out if I don't get back there asap. *sigh*

...today is such a nice day out I actually have my window wide open for fresh air and it's not freezing. SO NICE.

Also, I want spaghetti. IDK why, I just do.

EDIT: Beginning June 1st, I need a passport to enter the US, even if I take the bus. =__=; Stupid US. But I just checked the government site and apparently if I get my application in asap it'll get back to me in 4-5 weeks. I guess on the plus side, if I actually get off my duff and get a passport I can take a plane to Otakon instead.

Been a while since I posted. Haha, I spent so many years writing in this thing every single day that lately when I haven't been writing in it much it seems weird. I go to post and realize it's been ten days (or whatever) since my last post and am surprised by it.

But recently I haven't been up to much... I'm actually quite sick right now (it's really TMI though, so I'm not going to elaborate.) I spent all last week trying to get through to my family doctor and failing, so I think I'm going to have to just break down and go to the Emergency Room, and probably have to endure at least one rather uncomfortable test that I can think of.

In the mean time, I was on hiatus at RY and TV, but my health always sucks and I can't be on hiatus forever, so I came off at RY yesterday and plan to come off at TV tomorrow. Being so sick the last while has really sapped my energy though; I'm not getting any nutrients or anything from my food right now (when I can even eat), and I've probably been taking too many pain pills. I've practically been living on cream-of-wheat because it's so bland and easy to digest. I still don't really feel up to much rping, but it's not fair to camp on characters if I'm just going to be away all the time. Plus I have to get back into helping with mod stuff at RY.

Anyway. Today I gave Sora and Riku a bath for the first time. They flailed around a little and generally went D8 at me. It was adorable. But they did need a bath. And I'm hoping if I do it often enough they'll learn to like playing in the water, or at least to tolerate it. They really liked being wrapped up together in a towel afterward though. ♥

I finished Foundation yesterday. It's the new Heralds of Valdemar book by Mercedes Lackey. I didn't realize how much I'd missed Valdemar until I started reading it (lol two days ago, I read for like 12 hours straight. XD;) Maybe now I can try writing some fic again? It'd be nice to work through my four-years-and-going writer's block. But I'm not holding my breath. Not being able to concentrate to write and draw is part of being bi-polar, and just reading a new Valdemar novel won't magically cure me of that. I wish though!

Today I found a copy of Razorback in region 1 NTSC format on ebay. Dad and I have both been searching for that movie for months now, and all we can find are copies on ebay that are region 2 PAL, which won't play on North American DVD players or TVs. So I'm hoping the seller will ship to Canada, but if he replies to my question about it and says no, Maddie says I can get it shipped to her/Chloe's place and then send them the money to forward it. >D

And now random pictures just for the hell of it:

( Loki and Tri have a night of drinking, apparently. )

( Nazoko. Still looking like Bella. I need the right wig and eyes for her, desperately. )

EDIT: It's getting pretty close to the day I'm taking Loki in to get his back claws done. The closer it gets to time, the more bad I feel about it, even though it's for a medical reason. Every time he comes and cuddles with me, or purrs at me I feel guilty. DX

I am ever so glad to be feeling alright again. Granted, it was just today (yesterday, wtf lack of sleep tonight), but THANK GOD. And then of course last night I didn't sleep at all, so even though I didn't feel sick, I was tired as a dog. Ugh body I hate you.

Still, I managed to get the cats in to the vet for their appointment at two, and everyone is pretty much fine so that's good. $272 later, they got their shots, and I talked with Dr. Taylor about Loki's allergies and the idea of getting his back claws removed. He scratches his face all up, to the point where his ears swell closed, and his eyes are all rimmed with scabs, and I'm worried he'll cause permanent damage. There's nothing we can really do to get rid of the allergies (since they're seasonal; he has allergy problems the same time as I do), but at least with getting his claws removed he won't be able to hurt himself anymore.

I know; I hate the idea of back-declawing him. But after two years of different medications, shots, ear drops, shampoos, soaps, etc., the vet says it's probably about the only thing we can do. I've agonized over the decision for almost a year now, but having discussed it with Dr. Taylor today I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to have it done. He's going in the beginning of next month. It's going to cost me another $170.

Last time I mentioned getting a cat declawed I got an anonymous comment about how cruel it is, so for anyone who feels the need to comment this time: THIS IS FOR MEDICAL REASONS. I WOULD NOT GET HIS BACK CLAWS REMOVED IF BOTH I AND THE VET DIDN'T THINK IT WAS NECESSARY. Thank you.

Watched Resident Evil: Degeneration, Max Payne and Red Sands today. Now I'm watching Mirrors because I can't sleep. At least I have good movies to keep me occupied.

Also, as I haven't done many real updates lately, I went to see the doctor about two weeks ago; she checked me out, switched my meds around a bit, and diagnosed me with Fibromyalgia. Yay for chronic pain disorders. -__-;

...and I think I might have to take an official hiatus from RY and TV for a while. I want to keep playing, but I'm a basketcase right now for various reasons. I think I'm going into a major downswing, which I haven't had in a while... my new meds aren't strong enough, I don't think. So I might take a break for a couple weeks to kind of collect myself. Of course if I feel human again sooner than that I could come back sooner... gah, but I hate going on hiatus. It always makes me feel like I'm letting people down. ><;

The space bar on my keyboard is sticking, and I broke my computer chair the other day. >__>;

Well, rizumikaru_yomi is back from the two week hiatus. :) No thanks to me since I missed the mod meeting yesterday. Ugh brain wtf, it was not Sunday yesterday it was Monday. >__O;; Anyway, yay! I've been bored without RY lol. Also, some of the things that were upsetting me have been worked out so I'm good now. At least RP-wise.

I need to get Dean and House into stuff at TV too. For some reason I'm having trouble thinking of ways for them to get into things. Grr. *pokes teh muses*

And now for some thoughts on movies that I've watched the last couple days, courtesy of graboid.

--> The Day The Earth Stood Still (remake; Keanu Reeves) Was alright, as disaster movies go. Not the best one I've ever watched, but certainly not the worst. It had it's moments. Plus, the special effects were awesome. Made me think of Armageddon and War of the Worlds a lot.

--> Seven Pounds (Will Smith) Not the kind of movie that I normally watch, but as I'm a HUGE Will Smith fan, I made an exception. It was an amazing movie, and I cried really hard at the end. I never figured out how the title figures into the movie, though. xD; *fail*

--> The Unborn (Odette Yustman, Gary Oldman) ...kekekeke. >3 MY KIND OF MOVIE. Creepy, freaky, night-mare inducing. I loved it. Similar to Mirrors in the kind of scares they produce. ♥

--> Yes Man (Jim Carrey) LAWL I still ♥ Jim Carrey. srsly. This was a hilarious movie. DDR on redbull awesome. And there was some serious stuff in it. I suppose you could consider it a movie where the character grows as a person throughout, despite the slapstick and and around that.

--> Bedtime Stories (Adam Sandler) Okay, so it's no real secret that I'm not a huge Adam Sandler fan. Most of his movies I find really terrible and crude; there's only been a few that I've liked. This one was made my Disney though, so I figured it'd be alright. It was cute. I don't know if I'd run out to buy it ASAP when it comes out on DVD, but it was worth watching.

...so basically, Sena will watch anything. XD;

And now a random note for Kiin: Your original slash is going to involve a vampire. With multiple personalities. 8D And a human that I haven't thought about yet. I'm having so much fun with the clinically D.I.D. vampire that I haven't gotten around to his love interest yet. xD; I still need to name him, too. .__.; Hmm. God, the first name that leaps to mind is Christian, but it's so cliche I can't bring myself to use it. >__>;

Right, and now I should try again to fall asleep. Stupid insomnia.

So I finally managed to get my apps finished for taediumvitae_rp. It took forever, between moving and baking and family issues and everything, but YAY. Now I play Dean Winchester (escapeperdition) and House (thecaneisnotart) over there. Kekeke. House is so hard. XD; But fun! And Dean is awesome to play. Now I just need a Sam and I'll be set. ♥

Tonight was half-spent RPing (Demyx with Zexy, and a little with Michi as well in a different rp, and then Dean a bunch and House some. Also some ND with Cassandra-san. :3), and then after/around that... more baking. =D;

Michi and I are rping Demyx/Axel. Which, I mean, is made of awesome, right? Except Dem is topping sort of, which is crazy and also really hot. O__O; Plus there's angst in there too, which just makes it even better. XD; Turns out I have a think for uke!Axel. Who knew? XD

I finished off 12 dozen lemon cheesecake cookies tonight, and now I'm doing what is (almost) the last of the shortbread. I still have one more batch to make tomorrow or the next day, but that's it. After this, I still have to do fruit cookies, lemon squares, buttertart squares, and broken-glass torte. Way to go right to the wire, self. >>;

A reminder, all the Christmas packages for people are going to be late. Sorry. But I am sending them. So yay for packages after Christmas? IT EXTENDS THE HOLIDAY, DAMMIT. XDD;;

1) I have seven piercings in my ears, and all seven are infected right now. Two on my right ear were bothering me a bit yesterday (oh crap, it's 4:49 am so I guess it was two days ago) and when I got up this morning it was way worse and every one of them is all inflamed and swollen and sore. >.<; I hate being allergic to metals. Every couple months my ears flare up because of it. I'll have to dig out my silver hoops to wear to keep the piercings open until they heal again. -__-;

2) Sinus infection. I still has it. Bah. In fact, need more pills after I'm done this entry.

3) On Wednesday, I was hit on by a deaf man. SO AMUSED, because the whole thing was pantomimed because I don't know sign language beyond the basic alphabet. XD It was epic and awesome. Too bad he was like twice my age. >>;

4) Still unpacking, but I'm well on my way to being done. THANK GOD. I'm so sick of not having everything organised. I like clutter (I'm not really comfy unless there's clutter because of being bi-polar and borderline OCD) but I HATE mess and right now that's the point I'm still at. DX

5) Yesterday, the cable guy came to install the digital outlets and everything. I have cable in my room now! ANIMAL PLANET! \o/ DISCOVERY CHANNEL! HEALTH CHANNEL! SPACE! I just need the Anime Network and I'll be set. :3 And the ability to run cable Internet to my room now, WHICH I AM DOING ASAP NEXT WEEK. FUCK YOU WIRELESS.

6) Sora is settling in well, he's eating and drinking fine and getting comfy with his cage and everything. He's still a little nervous though, which I expected. ♥ He likes to sit with me while I watch TV, in the crook of my arm~

6) Tonight was the night everyone poisoned Rufus at RY. Kyo got in on that because he's the head of security (other than the Turks). In evacuating the building he got gassed a little, but it's no big deal really, he's just coughing because of it. However, he got stuck with Agon for most of it, and Agon out of nowhere told him about his thing with Zelos. ;A; Kyo is pissed off, and heartbroken again, and now if he keeps working at Shinra he has to deal with both Sephiroth and Agon. I can see him quitting some time soon. For the time being he's going to stay with Vergil and Dante, since he lives with Zelos and doesn't want to go back there. ;__;

7) Mel, Bonnie and I are working on a new, as-of-unnamed fantasy rp. It's going to be AWESOME. That's all on that for now.

8) Must get my Taedium Vitae and Moulin Noir apps finished this weekend! >| <-- determined faise!

EDIT: 9) ALSO. A COUPLE DAYS BELATED BUT HELL YEAH USA HAS AN OBAMA FOR PRESIDENT!

Guitar no Rae (8:09:43 PM): Sho : Hey old man...don't you like...need this?
Guitar no Rae (8:10:02 PM): Sho : I think I'll add it to my art collection~!
SenashentaChan (8:11:09 PM): House:: While it's certainly pretty enough, my cane is not an art piece. Now give it back.
Guitar no Rae (8:12:23 PM): Sho : -Snorts.- My art collection to other people, is a junk heap. It represents the world. Garbage. C'moooon gramps, you're sooo zetta slow!
SenashentaChan (8:16:48 PM): House:: It's not junk, either. It's a necessary medical device. *pills yey!*
Guitar no Rae (8:17:55 PM): Sho : So was that wheelchair I added to the pile three days ago. What's your point. FOIL. First Outer Inner Last. There is no point.
SenashentaChan (8:20:17 PM): House:: Right. And I bet insanity runs in your family, doesn't it?
Guitar no Rae (8:20:46 PM): Sho : No. But want to know something that does?
Guitar no Rae (8:20:58 PM): Sho : I'll give you a clue if you want.
SenashentaChan (8:21:36 PM): House:: Early death, if you don't hand over the cane. *hand out*
Guitar no Rae (8:23:04 PM): Sho : Very good!! -Tucks cane under arm and grins.- Death. Early death...sorry, you've already been beaten~! -Looks at his hand and digs into his pocket giving him a red pin with a black skull looking design.- Here. It was a craze back in Shibuya.
SenashentaChan (8:26:00 PM): House:: *that was not an eye twitch, really* Well since this isn't Shibuya. *tosses the pin to the side* Cane. Now.
Guitar no Rae (8:27:07 PM): Sho : Please Excuse My Dear Aunt Sally. Manners old man. That attitude will get you no where.
SenashentaChan (8:27:47 PM): House:: Did Aunt Sally teach you to steal from cripples, too?
Guitar no Rae (8:29:19 PM): Sho : I don't have an Aunt Sally. -Scratches nose.- But if she did, that'd make math so much more fun. Tell you what...You can get your cane back...iiiiif you can solve this little equation.
SenashentaChan (8:30:46 PM): House:: Sorry, don't have the time for riddles. I am a Doctor, you know, always busy.
Guitar no Rae (8:31:06 PM): Sho : You sure have wasted a lot of time with me.
SenashentaChan (8:31:50 PM): House:: Because I need my cane, dammit! *more pills lawl* Fine, what's the equation?
Guitar no Rae (8:34:46 PM): Sho : Forget it, you so zetta boring. Stupid 000's. -Sighs and rubs the back of his neck.-
Guitar no Rae (8:36:01 PM): Sho : Alright. Solve x^3+5x^2-2x+1
SenashentaChan (8:40:39 PM): House:: 3x(squared) + 10x -2. I recommend a psychiatric evaluation.
Guitar no Rae (8:41:24 PM): Sho : -Doesn't look pleased at all. Shoves the cane to House's chest.- Lucky guess.
SenashentaChan (8:42:06 PM): House:: It wasn't a guess. *yey cane \o/*
Guitar no Rae (8:43:15 PM): Sho : Like a man at your age can do mathematical equations that fast. Like I said, zetta slow. Factoring hectopascal.

LOL House practice with Reppy and Sho from The World Ends With You. XD; HMD?

Just reserved Gregory House and Dean Winchester over at Steph's new rp taediumvitae_rp. It's not opening until November 1st. I'll have to try to get my applications done after moving on the 28th.

The idea of House and Dean trapped in a mansion with a bunch of strangers = so epically entertaining to me. xD;