Hokay... entry after a freaking month. Life ate me up and spat me out and I'm still completely stressed out and messed up about a lot of things. Suddenly everything just exploded. I guess when it rains it pours, right? Anyway.

1) Otakon: I'm hoping to still do a more in-depth entry about Otakon, but for now here's the brief version; Air Canada sucks, the hotel we were in has the most gorgeous lobby ever (me and Pronnie did an epic photo shoot there~ ♥), meeting everyone I hadn't met before was AWESOME, and seeing Maddie, Chloe and Michelle again was as well because I MISSED THEM TERRIBLY. IN FACT, I MISS EVERYONE TERRIBLY AGAIN. ;A;

The first day we went to the aquarium, and I gave myself heatstroke. That night we did pre-reg. The next day was the first day of the con itself and I was so sick from the day before that I pretty much didn't do anything but lie around and feel miserable all day, until around 1am when Maddie finally forced me up and dragged me out for foodz. (A good thing, really. Thank you Maddie. ♥) Saturday I did BOYS!Riku cosplay and totally forgot to take pics in it. *facepalm* Sunday was Dealer's Room day and I spent way too fucking much money. YAY ANYWAY.

There was some drama/wank over the course of the weekend, but that's all I have to say on the topic.

Like I said, more detailed post to come, probably tomorrow or the next day. Also I'll post some of my fav photos from the trip then, but for now there are a few in my DevART if anyone is just dying to see them.

2) Dayton: After Otakon was a 12 hour bus ride to Dayton. -.-; At least the bus wasn't crowded, so we all got to stretch out and be (semi) comfy. I stabbed my own foot on the ice pick on my cane though. *facepalm* Slept on the couch at Maddie and Chloe's place every night except one (thank you guys! ILU!) and me and Steph stole their kitchen a couple times to bake and cook. :3 Chloe made us yummy salmon sammiches and okanomiyaki (um, I think that's how it's spelled? XD;;) that was FABULOUS too.

Went to the Dayton Celtic Festival while Steph and Mari were visiting Rei in Detroit, and also to the Dinosaurs Alive! exhibit in Cincinnati with Chloe's Mom, which was so much fun YOU HAVE NO IDEA. I GEEKED OUT SO HARD CORE OVER THE ANIMATRONICS. >w< When Steph and Mari came back we went to Jungle Jim's too, which was awesome. And one day we all went out and did cosplay at the mall (Chloe had to work though D:) where I cosplayed Elena from FFVII, and BOYS!Riku so I could take some pics.

More in-depth on all that in the next post too, I swear.

3) Mom: Okay, after finding out that Mom had cancer I obviously freaked out a lot. Not to mention stressed myself out to the point of having painful stomach cramps and acid reflux so bad I couldn't lay down every night the last three weeks. But Mom went for her MRI a couple weeks ago and when the results came back, it turned out the specialist was right and it's just beginning stage cervical cancer.

So basically, she's having surgery (a radical hysterectomy) and that should cover it. She shouldn't need chemo or radiation therapy or anything afterward. The operation is scheduled for the 15th of next month, and then she needs 6 weeks off to recuperate afterward.

Obviously, I'm still worried and stressed about it. It's a massive operation; they're removing all of her womb, her fallopian tubes and ovaries, some lymph nodes, all of her cervix and a portion of her vagina. I know it's done routinely and it's nothing to really be worrying too much over, but I can't help it. I won't feel any better until the 15th once the operation is over and she's awake and everything's okay.

4) My Surgery: Went for the mandatory class last week. It was three hours long, and seriously, I didn't learn anything I didn't already know. Oh well. I have two more appointments before I can have the operation at the beginning of the new year, one the first week of September, and then one in October at some point. The one in October was originally supposed to be on the 17th of September, but got pushed back because of Mom's surgery on the 15th; hers is WAY more important than mine.

5) Moving: ASDGH I HAVE AN APARTMENT!! X3!! SO EXCITED! It's downtown, and one bedroom (though I'm not using it the typical way) and it has a kitchen and a bathroom and dsnhaguidfh I don't have to share with anyone but my cats and rabbits! X3 GAH, but I only found out less than a week ago and I'm moving in the first week of September so I'm kind of scrambling to send in the paperwork to ODSP and get everything squared away and all my stuff packed. Still. ♥♥♥

Steph and Mari: Still working on packages for you guys, but they've had to be put off a little bit because of the move. Expect them in October some time, probably. ♥

Posting from Momo at Maddie and Chloe's house. I miss my own PC, but I'm glad they'll let me borrow the laptop to check my email and everything. I'm writing this now because they've gone to bed so I don't feel so bad about stealing their computer lol. ^^;

Anyway, everything is pretty much going fine, and I'm having tons of fun. My one leg is royally fucked up though, and I really need to see a doctor when I get back to Canada; it feels like I've got something tearing in my calf, a muscle or tendon, and it hurts like hell. But it's holding up well enough that I don't have to go to the hospital here, which is a good thing considering I don't have travel insurance. >>; Chloe says is it comes down to it I could go to an urgent care clinic though, so I'm keeping that in mind just in case.

Short post because it's 5am and I need to get to bed, but I'll have a huge long Otakon post when I get back to Canada in a week (complete with tons of misc pics, including from the massive yakuza!Kadaj and Asch photo shoot that me, Pronnie and Maddie did on Saturday night.) Until then, this is it.

Oh, and sorry to anyone I was supposed to be texting while I've been here. Turns out that when Virgin told me my plan "covered everything", they actually meant "covered everything in Canada", and here it's completely useless. My fucking cell is a PAPERWEIGHT here. I can't even call 911 on it. When I get back home I'm going to call Virgin to bitch about it and get my plan changed so that next time I won't be stuck without a phone. -.-;

Tomorrow we're going to a Celtic festival! 8D

Maddie darling, my flight has been changed. So don't bother waiting for me at the airport on the 15th, I won't be arriving until just after 7pm. *facepalm* I'll call you when I'm leaving the airport to let you guys know I'm on my way and just take a cab to the hotel. ♥

In other news: My NIN t-shirt for BOYS!Riku came in yesterday (still waiting on one bracelet, and I need to make a little paopu charm), as did the 2010 KH fan-calendar I ordered and a coyote skull I bought a while back. Shut up I like it. It's going on my shelves when I find room for it. XD;

Ugh, someone beat my wireless with a stick or something for me? For about four days now it's been acting up, cutting out a lot. Basically it doesn't work for more than half an hour or forty-five minutes at a time. -__-;;

Anyway.

Yesterday I watched Splinter. It's about these people who are attacked by a parasitic organism and end up trapped in a gas station. The organism itself takes over people's bodies and basically forms quills/splinters inside them and breaks them down in the most painful possible way, then eats their blood. Awesome. It was really good, and unique as well. Here's a trailer for anyone who's interested:


I've also recently watched the new Transformers movie. ASDGH TRANSFORMERS = ♥♥♥ I know that die hard fans were really disappointed by it, but I loved it. I grew up with Transformers, but I can still watch the new movies and look at them as completely separate from the original TV series. A lot of people can't do that, unfortunately. *shrug*

And now I'm watching the new Ice Age movie. I'm a horrible downloader. But I'll be buying all these movies on DVD after Otakon at some point anyway, lol. XD;

Also, Otakon is coming up so fast! I keep having random panic attacks about the airport since I've never flown anywhere before. DX I know it'll be fine, but I keep going dgahdfuaigh what if I get lost or miss my flight or something? >.<;; Note to self: Stop being such a spaz over the whole thing. >>;

EDIT: lol live action Zelda movie! 8D

I just had the perfect cup of tea. Like, so exactly perfect that even though I want another cup I'm not going to have one because it could never measure up. I hate when that happens. Sort of. It's a kind of love-hate. XD;;

Last night while I was watching movies I made a really cute Halloween bracelet. I'll post pics of it when I get around to uploading them from my camera.

I've started packing for Otakon already, and trying to figure out last-minute arrangements. I have all my wigs packed except my red one and one of my brown-blonde ones. I also packed all of my neckties except my Ouran one, I think. XD; I still have to make sure I pack all my meds and first-aid supplies, and then packing my actual casual clothes (jeans, shorts, t-shirts, whatever) has to wait until like the day before I leave. Also, I still have to pack the NIN shirt and bracelets I ordered for BOYS!Riku cosplay, but I can't do that until they come in.

Someone needs to help me trim my Riku wig when we're settled in the hotel in Baltimore. /note

Tomorrow or the next day I have to go to the greyhound website and buy my ticket to get to Toronto on the 15th. My flight is at 12:30, which means I have to be there at 9:30am for check in, which means I have to leave here at 7am on the bus. =.=;; Ah well.

Yeah I fail at like... everything online lately. I've been having a lot of trouble irl with various things, which I may or may not get into in this entry. Anyway, list format today for the sake of my sanity because I have a fuckton of stuff to talk about since it's been so long since I last wrote anything. xD;

1) ANIME NORTH. Okay, basically I spent the whole weekend at my table trying to sell jewelry and pony commissions (since I wasn't allowed to actually sell the ponies there). I sold a bit, and got two commissions (Van from Escaflowne and Reno from FFVII. XD), but the way Artist Alley and Crafter's Corner was organized this year was RETARDED, and the Corner was way the hell out of the way so we got practically no traffic. SO ANNOYING. Anyway, all that work and spending that much time at the table, and I basically broke even for the cost of the con registration, the table, and the parts that went into the jewelry. So much for making money for Otakon. -__-;

Anyway, that aside, I got to see Mel and Zexy again. :3 I went to a D-Gray photoshoot with Mel on Friday, and to the Moonlight Ball with her and Bonnie on Saturday night for a while. I didn't get to see Zexy as much, but she stopped by my table twice to say hi and give her her present~ ♥

On Friday I wore my Org13 Demyx outfit. It was INSANELY HOT. DAMN PLEATHER. And I forgot my gloves at home, so I just wore my shark/dolphin rings instead. *shrug* I also didn't have my boots because the morons I ordered them from backed out at the last minute. This was remedied Saturday morning, though, when I found awesome bootcovers in the Dealer's Room. Then Saturday during the day I wore my casual!Demyx outfit. Did I mention I LOVE LOVE LOVE my new wig? It's so awesome there are no words to describe it. And it fits perfectly, and stays in place all day, it doesn't even budge. >w<~ Anyhow! Then Saturday night for the Moonlight Ball I wore my Haine cosplay. Sunday was Org13 Demyx again for a while, then last-minute casual!Lavi that pretty much all came from my closet lol.

I didn't buy a whole ton of stuff like I do most years because I was trying to save monies for Otakon, but I did get four boxes of pocky, a Riku plushie (I always get myself a plushie at AN), and about 30 buttons. XD; A bunch of KH ones, some FFVII ones and some Ouran ones. Also, one booth had kitty buttons and the proceeds from them went to a cat rescue, so I got myself one of those. Then I got three more the next day to send to people. XD; Oh, and I got some henna done on my arm. It's faded out now, but I took pics of it~

( Various photos from AN. Haine cosplay photos when I get around to getting some from Mel or raiding my Mom's camera. >>; )

2) ON THE WAY HOME FROM ANIME NORTH. Two things happened; first, I was looking out the window of the van and actually saw a songbird attack a hawk in midflight. It was spectacular and I couldn't believe it. I've seen that kind of thing on Animal Planet, but I never thought I'd see it IRL. WOW.

Second... I broke a knuckle in my right hand. >__>;; I caught it in a booth when we stopped for food. It was all bruised for a while and hurt like a bitch, but I didn't bother going to the hospital. *shrug* Which was fine until a couple days ago when I smashed it off a doorknob and re-cracked it. xD; *FAIL OMFG*

3) OTAKON. Well... I didn't make any money toward Otakon at AN like I'd wanted, but I still managed to finagle out a way to pay for it. GO ME. Basically, I'm not paying my parents rent for next month, and then paying double in August. I'm also borrowing $300 from my Grandma, which I'm paying back in September. Ugh more debt but fuck it, I'M GOING. XD; So I've already paid for my registration and my plane tickets (NO 26 HOUR BUS RIDE FOR ME THIS YEAR), which completely maxed out my credit card two weeks ago, but you know... whatever. >>; It'll get paid off at the end of the month.

Maddie love, let me know when you have a tentative total for the stuff we're doing in Dayton and gas monies and everything. ♥

Cosplay for Otakon! Org13 Demyx and Haine for sure. Also, I think I'm going to do Riku cosplay from BOYS, just for kicks and to see how many people get it. I could trim up my Suigintou wig a bit and it'd work for Riku totally fine. I NEED SOME HEMP BRACELETS AND STUFF. I SHOULD GET SOME HEMP AND JUST MAKE THEM MYSELF IT WOULD BE CHEAPER. I also need some gray arm warmers to go as fake long sleeves under the t-shirt so that I don't have to wear layers lol. Also, yakuza!Kadaj, complete with pinstripe shirt and fedora. >D

I'm also bringing about six other wigs in case myself or anyone wants to do impromptu cosplay of anything. My Kyo wig for sure, and my blonde pigtail one, and probably my blue one and maybe my red one, though I got that one for Axel cosplay (next year maybe), and I don't want it to get messed up between now and when I have a chance to style it... hmm. Must think on this more.

4) B-GRADE MOVIES. After AN, we stopped at Dad and Lois' place to say hi and see teh doggies, and I borrowed 24 b-grade movies from him. XD TWENTY-FOUR. AWESOME. Some of the best ones were The Burrowers, Alien Raiders and Decoys (the second one is bad though.) I also borrowed Underworld: Rise of the Lycans, which I LOVED. ♥

5) SORA AND RIKU. Last week I had to take my rats to the vet. Riku was diagnosed with pneumonia, and the vet gave me antibiotics for him... but unfortunately, he died the next day. It's sad, but he was in a really bad way, so I'm kind of glad he didn't suffer for long. Sora doesn't seem to know what to do without him, though. Also, I had to treat Sora for mites today. That's no big deal, though.

6) JEWELRY. IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED IN BUYING SOME JEWELRY, LOOK HERE. 90% OF IT IS STILL AVAILABLE.

7) FEET. Last Friday, my feet and ankles swelled up to twice their normal size. As in, I had no discernable ankle, and could barely walk because of it. =_=;; And they stayed that way until TUESDAY NIGHT. WTF? I have no idea why, but it was a pain and a little disturbing on top of that. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday though, and the doctor wants me to go for bloodwork, since it's possible my meds are the cause of the swelling. Yep.

8) DOCTORS IN TORONTO. A while back, I mentioned about going in for gastric bypass surgery. Last month I went to the initial consultation in Toronto, and then earlier this month I went for the appointment with the social worker and dietician. I still have to go to a gastric bypass class, and see an internist before going back to the surgeon again, at which point my surgery will actually be scheduled.

Things are actually coming along rather well. The only big problem right now is that my Grandma is really against it. She doesn't think I should do it. But then she thinks that my weight issues are my fault. It's bad enough that strangers assume I'm lazy and don't eat well, but having my own Grandma think that really hurts. She keeps giving me lectures about exercise and eating right-- I already eat right (even the dietician was impressed), and I exercise as much as I can but with my legs the way they are, it isn't always possible. I have to walk with a cane, Grandma, it's not like I can just break into an easy run. *sigh* I really need to talk to her about it, but... I know I'll just get another lecture about not trying hard enough, and end up crying for two days over it. I dunno...

9) THE YARD. Mom has decided this summer that she's sick of the back and front yard (what little we have of them, this is just a townhouse after all), and wants them to look really nice. So we've all been working on the yard for the last month, putting down sod and seeding and watering and pulling up weeds. Also, in the front yard we lined the sidewalk with quartz stones, with solar lights along the other side. Then next to the door we planted a little cedar tree, with more quarts around it. Yep.

10) ROLEPLAY. I haven't been rping as much lately, with everything IRL. I was supposed to be back from hiatus at TV like a month ago. I really need to get back there before people get sick of it and I get kicked out.

I have, however, been rping some zombie!apocalypse-verse Kingdom Hearts with Michi over email. It's hilarious and fun. Plus RikuRoku, which makes me happeh. :D And I've been rping with my bb Kiin over at losechesters, which is a comm Kiin set up for us for "Winchestertastical" roleplay. I'm Sam and she's Dean and basically it's just for the sake of crack. It's SO much fun. Which reminds me, I need to think up another post for there... >.>;

1) Rizumikaru Yomi secret at rp!secrets. I miss that place still. ;__; I hear you, anon!

2) Anime North post tomorrow, I promise. With some pics and everything. =D; *has been lazy*

3) EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T MAKE MUCH AT AN, I AM STILL GOING TO OTAKON. BWAHAHA. I'VE GOT IT ALL WORKED OUT YES OH YES. >w<~

Yesterday Mom and I went to Toronto for my appointment with the gastroenterologist. Basically, it took an hour and a half to drive there, almost two hours of waiting in the waiting room for the appointment (the doctor was running stupidly late), and then when I finally got in, the phone rang TWICE in the middle of the consult, which he picked up, and then talked about finances for twenty minutes each time while I sat there with nothing to do.

Then he told me I'm fat because I don't eat properly and don't excersize, which I'm used to hearing from doctors by now. It's very frustrating because it's not fucking true, but that he would do the surgery anyway. Then he told me I had to make appointments with three other specialists before he could even do the real consult with me. WHAT? You couldn't have told me that over the phone so I could do that BEFORE driving way the hell down there? FFS. Then after the next consult with him, it's 4-6 months until the surgery. *sigh* What a pain.

Anyway, to make up for that craptacular experience, Mom and I went to the World's Biggest Bookstore while we were there (turns out it's half a block from the Greyhound station and I never even realised *facepalm*), where Mom got me volumes 7-10 of After School Nightmare, 1-2 of Cherry Juice and Absolute Boyfriend (which I subsequently downloaded scanlations of the rest because it was so good, I'm so buying the rest of the set!), the first volume of Tsubasa (Those With Wings) and 6 of Vampire Knight. Also, a book on handwriting analysis, a nightmare encyclopedia, a book about cults, a book about the knights templar, a Sylvia Browne book on psychic children, Deluge by Anne McCaffrey and Elizabeth Ann Scarborough (FINALLY) and Crime Spells, which is a short story collection about magical crimes. >w<~

Right!

There hasn't been any new news on Wally since Sunday. Originally, they had said that if he didn't show any improvement over the weekend, they would pull the plug on Monday. Saturday night, he started trying to breathe on his own again, though, and Sunday he started moving a little and his eyes were open off-and-on (though they're unsure if he was actually seeing or not). He's still got to be on life support, and obviously hasn't been talking, but since they're seeing improvement, now they're waiting longer to see how he does in a more long-term setting. We're all still really hopeful that he'll pull out of it...

And finally, tonight's Grey's Anatomy? = DDDDDDDDDDDD8 NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. I literally gasped out loud and sat up with my hands over my mouth when Merideth figured out who John Doe was... ;___; And Izzy...

EDIT: Also, HOLY SHIT STAR TREK WAS AN AWESOME MOVIE. O___O!!

EDIT #2: A couple days ago, the people who were supposed to be custom-making the boots I was going to be using for Org13!Dem and Lavi cosplay emailed me and backed out. WTF. SO ANNOYING, especially so close to Anime North. They refunded the money, and I was panicking about not having the boots, but Mel says she can make me some bootcover-things, so it should be okay. Then I can try to find the actual boots later on. Yay~

EDIT #3: *facepalm* God, lookit the edits today. Anyway, my passport came in and I picked it up yesterday. AWESOME. Now assuming I can afford it, I can get into the US for Otakon. :D

I finally broke down and got a new mp3 player. My Zen was lovely, but the controls stopped working about a year ago (it was only a year old at the time), and it had been stuck on shuffle after that. I could turn it on and listen to music, but I couldn't pick tracks, it just played stuff randomly. I finally got sick of it, and bought a new player. I got it really cheap though, so it's all good.

I just needed to have one for traveling, assuming I'm going to Otakon in July. I don't travel well long distances without music. >>;

Oh, and the passport office put through the payment on my credit card yesterday, so I assume I have been approved, which means that I am allowed to go to the US. :D Which is awesome, as if I wasn't allowed I couldn't go to Otakon even if I had the money. >>; WHICH I WILL. *DETERMINED*

...I think there's a possibility I will be cosplaying Lavi at AN after all. Casual!Lavi though, since I already have everything for it except an eyepatch. I'd just have to actually style the wig I bought a while back. Which reminds me, I need to go to Shoppers and get a pair of styling scissors at some point.

Tomorrow I'm going to the salon to get my hair cut, since it's been over a year since I had it done. Gotta have it short again to make wigs for con season easier. ♥

Apparently, I suck at keeping my journal updated lately. I used to be so good about it too. But I don't know... I've been really down lately, and not feeling up to doing anything. I haven't been on aim much either and I've just been rping a little with one or two people. I'm considering going on partial hiatus at TV until I get myself straightened out again.

Not much had been going on lately. I've been working on stuff to sell at AN, and fretting over whether I'll have enough money to go to Otakon this year or not. I'm really hoping I will, but with not being able to sell my ponies at the table it might not happen... but, I'm currently finnegling with my finances to see just how much I need to sell to be able to go to Baltimore (and then to VA and then to Dayton) so fingers crossed.

I am currently watching Eden Log, which is going so far over my head it might as well be a jumbo jet. XD; I'm going to have to watch it again and try to figure it out lol.

A few days ago I dislocated one of my toes. I slammed it into the stairs by accident. At least it popped back in on its own. Still hurt like a bitch though. BEHOLD I AM THE MASTER OF PERSONAL INJURY. Also, of not going to the hospital for dislocated joints because they happen all the fucking time wtf body.

RP talk, so if you don't care don't bother reading past here. More actual life-updates later on once I've thought about what I want to say.

We have a new Axel at TV, and I've gotten sucked into the AkuRoku trap. XD; I promised myself I wouldn't, not because I don't ship them together, but because it's pretty overdone at this point. Ah well. They're cute together, and Roxas is totally the man of the relationship which makes me laugh constantly. Also, tonight he got into an argument with Kanda, and the two of them spammed Axel's journal with it. lmao.

House is being his antisocial self, though he does get along rather well with Ziva (I totally ship them now, w2g TV you've ruined my in-series ships), and he's agreed to tutor Lenalee in math so long as he can call on a favor from her at some point in the future. He may get her to do something cruel to Remus, as he's still holding a grudge against him from way back when puppy!Remus chewed his cane up.

Dean is currently being crabby over the new event (school, yay?), and refuses to go, so he and Faith are going to hide out in the room with booze and porn and probably trade Hunter/Slayer stories. Faith demanded he share his porn and Dean was like "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE?" I still wish I had a Sam at TV though, Dean secretly worries about him.

Aaaaand Michi and I are doing a RikuRoku rp right now that takes place in the zombie!verse from the apocalypse!KH fic I'm in the process of tinkering with. XD; I get to play snarky/bitchy!Roxas, and that makes me utterly happy because he's too nice most of the time in TV (and he was the same way at RY, except with Axel lol.) RPing in it is really helping me flesh out the zombie!verse, so to speak, so I'm happy with it. :3

Loki's nail caps came in today. I was all excited when I saw the package, and as soon as Mom got home I got her to hold him so I could put them on (it ended up taking both her and Lee to hold Loki down, he flailed a lot and it turns out he's super strong. XD;;) Anyway, he immediately chewed two off, which I replaced about an hour later, and then right after that he pulled another one off. UGH.

I'm hoping he gets used to them. But I was worried they would be a problem, especially considering when he grooms his feet he chews his nails; I've never seen a cat do that other than him, and normally it's not an issue, but obviously it could be with him wearing the nail covers. *sigh*

Anyway, I guess we'll see. For now he's still missing one nail cap (I'll replace it and any he chews off tonight at some point tomorrow), and still wearing the cone collar in an attempt to help him get used to them by making it a little harder for him to destroy them. If these caps don't work, I'll have to go back to the plan where I have his back claws removed. >.<;;

I cooked dinner tonight, coca-cola chicken, rice and beans. Yummy.

And I dug through my cosplay stuff to organize it some (so I'm not doing it at the very last minute for AN), and I can't find my chain for casual!Demyx. :| I have no idea where it's gotten to. I might have to make another one. Not that it was hard to make lawl. I haven't lost anything else though, thankfully.

I want a fedora for Kadaj for pics with Pronnie in the summer at Otakon, but idk where to get one. xD; And I need to make sure it doesn't clash with the shirt I have for yakuza!Kadaj too. I wish I could have Souba to take with me for those pics too, since he uses that as opposed to firearms. But even if I could make one, I so don't want to try taking it on the plane to Baltimore. >>;; I'm also bringing green ribbons for pics with Pronnie's Haruhi cosplay because LOL.

You can tell con season is coming up, half my journal nowadays is about cosplay. :D;

I need a studded belt. /random. I mean. >>; I have one, but the buckle is all flowers and stuff, so it doesn't go with the male cosplays I want to do. XD;; My red one is awesome too, but it has hearts in it... which I guess would work for some KH stuff, actually, now that I think about it. ._.;

Anyhoo~

So today I've decided to watch the Saw movies. Or, 2-5 anyway. I've avoided them all for a while because I watched like half an hour of Hostel a couple years ago and couldn't finish it because of the horrible, horrible torture sequences (I actually gave it away ASAP after that, hope you liked it Sethi? XD;;) and then just after that Sui-chan told me Saw was just as bad if not worse. So I crossed them all off my list of movies to see. XD;

But then a couple months ago I caught most of the first one on the TV and it wasn't nearly as bad as all that. xD;; The problem with Hostel was that it was torture and that is a big problem for me. Just violence doesn't bother me so much, and the Saw movies seem to be more about plain violence and mental anguish.

Anyway, so I watched II and III earlier and now I'm on IV. YAY. Then later today I have The Uninvited to watch.

Oh, last night I talked with Michi a bunch. ♥ ILU MICHI. I don't talk to her enough. /random

I guess RY is mostly dead now. It makes me sad. I love that place, but it's just... gone downhill a lot the last couple months, basically since we went on hiatus. *sigh* I'm sticking through until it's totally dead, though, or possibly if Steph and Maddie want out I'll talk with Mari about things we could try to get it going again. Hmm.

But if it completely dies, would people be interested in rping out some of the stuff we have planned anyway? We can do it over AIM or I'll set up rp threads in my own journal or something? Because I really want to at least do a couple logs with that vacation that Asch, Luke, Kadaj and Axel are supposed to go on. And some more stuff with Haruhi and Roxas. Things like that. Thoughts on that, people I rp with?

Now I need to get back into TV some. I was supposed to be off hiatus forever ago. But between being sick and... well, frankly, depressed as hell, I haven't done it yet. I'm going to get kicked out if I don't get back there asap. *sigh*

...today is such a nice day out I actually have my window wide open for fresh air and it's not freezing. SO NICE.

Also, I want spaghetti. IDK why, I just do.

EDIT: Beginning June 1st, I need a passport to enter the US, even if I take the bus. =__=; Stupid US. But I just checked the government site and apparently if I get my application in asap it'll get back to me in 4-5 weeks. I guess on the plus side, if I actually get off my duff and get a passport I can take a plane to Otakon instead.

I took some pics of the jewelry and stuff I've made the last few days, to post tomorrow or the next day. Now I have to get back to ponies, I need to have more of them done for selling at AN. The money from what will go toward Otakon.

I sent in my measurements for my Haine costume today, so now I just have to wait for it to be finished and get to me. I also have my Haine wig prepped for styling (mostly just the bangs, omg I know how you feel Lome >>;), which will probably happen tomorrow. I also need to find/make a red bow for it. If I'd been thinking I could have easily found one at Christmas time. *facepalm*

Next month I'm ordering my Org13 coat. I still need boots for that too, and a new wig for Demyx. Hmm. Then between AN and Otakon I have to order my Rima costume, but I already have the wig for that one. And I need to scrounge up bits and pieces for security!Kyo. I already know what I'm going to wear for yakuza!Kadaj though. I have an epic pinstripe shirt and a green tie for it. X3 Pronnie and I are going to pounce a random Axel cosplayer with a fedora for a couple pics LMAO.

I was supposed to be doing Lavi for AN as well, but I think I might have to scrap that idea. I don't know if I can afford it. I might have to just wait until next year for that cosplay.

For the first time in two years I don't think my Haruhi cosplay will be used! .__.; I might bring it to AN with me just in case, but idk. My Suigintou cosplay will probably be going to Otakon with me, depending on Seph and Reppy.

Back from Mom's place again. Spent the last four days doing not much else besides gaming with my brother. Heh. We took turns playing FFXII, and coaching each other. lol. His game is about 24 hours in, and mine is only about 15. He borrowed my PS2 to play some more, and I stole his N64 and Zelda games. XD; I'll let him finish his quest and then get my PS2 back from him. It shouldn't take him too too long, he can whip through video games insanely fast. Though kierseth tells me FFXII has something like 300 hours of gameplay so maybe it'll actually be a bit of a challenge to him for once? ^_^;

For Christmas I want a DS, and Tales of the Abyss. ;3; And a cell phone omg.

Anyway! Tomorrow is chiropractor day, and grocery shopping. But today after Mom and Lee got back I was talking to Mom about some of the stuff that happened when I was in the US (in regards to the bus station person who was a bitch to me about taking my other bag on the bus, and worrying when Maddie and Chloe were late picking me up in Dayton, until I got Michelle's text message), and how I really wish I had a credit card for situations like that. The problem is that I've applied several times for several different credit cards, and I keep getting turned down, I think because I'm on disability and not actually working. Which, Mom informs me, is discrimination. .__.;

So tomorrow while I'm out I'm going to actually stop in at the bank and sit down to talk with someone about it. I need a basic credit card, or a line of credit, or at least a decent sized overdraft for emergencies. I'm sure I can work something out. I should be able to. I'm also going to speak to a customer service person at Walmart about getting a Walmart credit card as well, since they've turned me down several times as well. Everything is in order, except that I'm on ODSP. So... wish me luck?

...I am in the middle of an epic Supernatural marathon, of all the episodes from season 3 that I missed last year. 8D GOOD TIEMS. I love this show. ♥

Okay, so I seriously should be sleeping. I've tried to go to bed a couple times and always just ended up back up again and working on something. Well, first I was up until almost four rping with Kiin. xD; Then I shut off my movie and tried to go to sleep, and couldn't, so I got back up and finished watching it. Then I tried again. Then I got back up and put on another movie, and worked on my alien queen model some. Then when that movie was over I tried to sleep again.

...and I've just spent the last 45 minutes laying in bed, thinking about Otakon, and having random gigglefits over some of the larping we did there. XD;; In particular, when Michelle made a Luke!comment about how he could definitively say Kadaj was a girl and why, and made Maddie and I go "... .__." because it was like the last thing we expected her to say. ♥

Also, when Kadaj and Kurai had that random slapping fight in the dark after we'd gone to bed. And then got yelled at by Reno and Albel. Because seriously that killed me in the best possible way.

THINKING ABOUT THAT MAKES ME MISS YOU GUYS. ;3; OTAKON '09 IS TOO FAR AWAY!

...And now I'm considering posting the Marluxia/Kadaj AIM-logs that Kiin and I have done the last couple days here, just for the sake of posting them. Because there is a lot of cute stuff, which we are squeeing over. However, the logs are also mostly smut, with the cute interspersed in there, and I don't know if I have the guts to put them up. XD;;

For those of you not familiar with RY-verse, YES SHUT UP I SAID MARLUXIA/KADAJ. X3 ~♥ RY has spawned some of the best crack pairings for me, I swear.

EDIT:: Okay, fuck it. Have some Marly/Kadaj. Yaoi smut ahoy. Probably not good for Sephiroth's health to read this. No really.

There are two others, but I can't post them here because of LJ's text limit. >>; Maybe I'll post them later on in different entries.

...I SHIP THEM SO HARD. *w*

EDIT #2: Maddie, I muddled out basic screencapping and got a cap of cheerleader!Jenova for you, so you don't have to worry about it. ♥

Still at Mom's. I'm going home tomorrow I guess. What a pain. Not that I don't love Mom/Lee/my brother and all, but... *le sigh* I wish I didn't live in such a slummy house. Seriously. I mean, we're the only house on the block like that. The rest of the neighborhood is nice. Guess they have better landlords and handymen. XP

Anyway, today Mom and I went to Barrie to look through the Sears store and wandered around the mall while we were there. They have a Green Earth store that's awesome and a really good tea store too. So many yummy flavours! Then we got lunch at the food court, and I got some Thai yellow curry. ♥

I checked the game store there for Tales of the Abyss, but no such luck. Bah. I think I'm going to have to get it off ebay after all. Oh well.

Also, went to Magpie Beads (I think they're called like... Magpie Creative Arts or something now though) and got some parts for making cell phone charms to sell at Otakon next year.

And speaking of beads, Maddie, I mailed your beads for you! They should get to you in a couple days as I sent them airmail. YAY. :D

EDIT: ( Reaper Crossing rambling. )

MADDIE/CHLOE/MICHELLE/MEL:

Did any of you come home with an extra plug after Otakon? I can't find the cord to my mini-iron, and I think I left it behind by accident. I'm hoping one of you packed it by accident or something. It's just a typical black appliance-cord.

MOVIE DAY. 8D A bunch of my cheap Columbia House movies came in today. So far I've watched The Reaping, The Return, Alien 3000, Jumper and From Dusk Til Dawn and now I'm watching Way of the Vampire, which I've actually had for a while and am just now getting around to watching. XD;;

Other than that... it was also a chat!day. I spent a long while chatting with people over AIM about various somewhat incoherent things. ♥ Some of which were Otakon 2009 related. We're filling up room spots fast for that, which is awesome. We want a big group for next year. We're staying at the Hilton, which actually has a tunnel walkway between it and the con center. Awesome. X3! Also working out artist alley stuff, since Maddie and I want a table, along with whoever else from the group wants to sell things there.

Speaking of art, I just picked out a pose for Asch!pony for Pronnie for her birthday next month. It's not a surprise because she asked for it. Haha. Got to get working on him though, so he'll be done in time.

Anyway. Yesterday I went to the Chiropractor, and he was like "WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOUR KNEES? AND YOUR ANKLES? AND YOUR BACK/SHOULDERS/NECK/EVERY OTHER BONE/JOINT IN YOUR BODY?" But he did the adjustments and now I'm feeling a little better. Still sore in some places. I think it's going to take at least one or two more treatments before I'm back to normal. The receptionist asked me about my knees and I said "I fell off a bus." and she blinked, and then blinked, and then blinked, and then was like "I thought you were going to say you fell off a bike." I laughed.

I HAS A [BADGE-A-MINIT] BUTTON PRESS. >D

Um, basically, that means I can make my own buttons to sell at AN/Otakon. Maddie and anyone else who'll have a table at Otakon with me next year, if you have designs you want me to press for you, we can talk about it. ♥

My leg is still swollen from the day we were at the aquarium. That was two weeks ago tomorrow. .__.;

At least my knee is mostly healed. Just a hugeass scar now and a little tiny bit of scab from the scrape along my leg under that from falling off the bus. xD;

Still, I'm a little worried about the fact my right leg/ankle is swollen still. It doesn't really hurt much anymore, but it's huge compared to my left leg. I must have really strained it more than I thought I had. Maybe I should wrap it tomorrow or something...

Plus, chiropractor tomorrow afternoon! He can fix my spine and knees and shoulders from all the falling I did in Baltimore/etc. >.>;

BTW. MADDIE, I MADE IT A WEEK! \o/